Past Events 

Betrayal & Forgiveness 

Where do I start?  Who is truly trustworthy?  I heard a statement a couple of years ago which went something along the lines of sometimes we meet people for a season - a short season or long season, or sometimes, just for a reason. That stuck with me and since then, many people have come into and subsequently gone from my circle of influence.  Some I have known and loved for a long season and others for a shorter season.  I can remember many years ago, a leader in our church movement took me aside and told me that I needed to let people in.  This was something I struggled with. However, I took this man's advice and tried hard to let the people get close.  

Has it been easy?  Well I guess you know by know, if I ask a question in my writing, there is probably an answer and in this case, the answer is no.  Do I bear the scars?  Yes, you guessed it, I sure do.  Do I regret taking advice?  I'll try to let you know when I am clear on that one!

Time after time, I slowly begin to trust and time after time, the betrayal comes.  So what do I do?  I have to look at the life of my Saviour and see He knows only too well what is was like to be betrayed, not only by the religious leaders of the day, but also one of His closest friends.  Betrayed by a kiss. A kiss!  So why do I find it hard when people have said 'I love you my friend' and then the turn their backs?  Well, Jesus knew He would be betrayed, and yet, He kept on loving Judas.  Ouch, that's hard.  Does that mean I still have to keep loving those who have let me down?  Does that mean I have to try to love new people and give them the chance to get in?

Well, on the cross Jesus did say 'Father, forgive them, for the do not know what they are doing.' Even those causing such pain and suffering, even to death, He kept loving and asked His father to forgive them, so I guess I have my answer, but I have to choose.  I have to choose whether to sit and lick my wounds and wallow in the betrayal, or do I stand in forgiveness.  I choose forgiveness, and in case you want to know, I am choosing forgiveness each time the pain comes back.  It is not a one stop fixes all, it is in the present continuous tense.  Now Keith would be proud that I am quoting one of his sermons about asking God and keeping asking in the present continuous tense!  Thanks hub, I do listen! I love you and thank you for being my mentor x

I digress, but at this point, I choose to keep loving and to keep trusting.  Love conquers.  

Sharon Wilson, 02/06/2019

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The hows and whys 

1 Thessalonians 4:13 tells us not to grieve like those of who have no hope, but what does that really mean for those of us who have lost loved ones, people we care so deeply and passionately about that losing them hurts, hurts with a real physical pain, in addition to the emotional loss?  
This is something I have been wrestling with over the last number of weeks.  For Keith and I, having lost two very close members of our family, Keith's dad and my brother, this has been a real, heart wrenching issue.  Yes, both of them loved the Lord dearly and we have no doubts where they are now, and yes, we don't grieve in a way of thinking they will be suffering eternally. Yes, we have every confidence they have commenced the rest of eternity with our loving heavenly Daddy and we praise God for that.  

I hear people saying 'now don't be sad, you know they are in a better place.'  Yes, I know that, and I also know that these sentiments are well meant and no-one is meaning to cause hurt.  But, you know, God made us emotional beings.  He is a loving God. He is a God with feelings and emotions.  Right from Genesis 1, we see that God saw his creation was good, He was pleased.  We also see that God was deeply saddened by the things we as His creation have done.  This goes right through to the New Testament, when Jesus learned of His friend Lazarus' death, He wept. Jn 11:35.  For me, this has been one of the most comforting verses of the Bible throughout my life.  I think as a woman in today's society, we sometimes feel that we need to surpress our emotions, especially when we are working in the real world.  There is an expectation that we have to be tough, that we have to hold back our feelings and appear strong at all times.  Wow, this is so wrong!  I don't believe for one moment that we should go around wearing our hearts on our sleeves and crying at every small thing that comes along, but, we have been given emotions and I don't believe God gives us emotions for no reason. He knows we need a release.  So why should we fight against this?

So, coming back to grief.  Is it wrong to feel sad?  Is it wrong to miss people so desperately?  Well, if Jesus cried and He is our example, then I see no reason why we shouldn't.  However, that doesn't mean we should be wallowing in our grief and sadness. Jesus wept, yet as God's Son, He knew the outcome. He knew Lazarus would be resurrected. We are God's children also, and if we know our loved ones are also God's children, we too know the outcome. We know they will be resurrected - maybe not in this world, but certainly in the Spiritual. Nevertheless, that does not remove the pain of the loss completely. We have been born with emotions and feelings. We miss our loved ones dearly.  Over 20 years later, I still miss my dad. The pain isn't as severe as it was in the beginning, but every now and again, something happens, something I think 'Dad would love to hear that or see that', and then realise he's not here.

However, in all these things, I acknowledge that He (God) has turned our sorrow (mourning) into dancing (Psalm 30: 11)

These are only my initial thoughts in a time of sadness.  I may change my mind and if I do, I shall add to this blog.  Comments are welcome. I'd love to hear your thoughts.

Sharon Wilson, 08/01/2017

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How God is changing Me!


To begin, leading me back into fellowship, for it is there, not only where He wants me to be, but where He knows my needs will be met.  Sharing with like-minded, encouragers, overseers of His Word under strong, purposeful, obedient, yielding leadership – He ‘knew’ and ‘knows’ I need ‘that place’ – The place where I could experience “touching Heaven” whilst endeavouring to rise up and take my place in the army that’s “taking earth”.

Touching Heaven…what does that feel like?  Well for me, it’s incredibly difficult to put into scholarly terms, so what I will do is tell you a little of my experience.  I know God’s hand has been upon me my whole life, too many years to put down here, maybe some other time…where it has got incredibly exciting is right about when life got incredibly confusing and difficult! No surprise there for some reading this.  Easy is just easy, but difficult has multiple layers!  I think I probably had got to the final layer of the onion layer in terms of difficult and then…something changed.  Did all my woes, tears, pain and awkward circumstances disappear?  Absolutely not!  But, and here’s the deal breaker… but because in ‘His complete wisdom’, He got me grounded under His chosen leadership (Bless you Pastor and Mrs W!) I stopped drifting, (not so sure I’ve stopped kicking yet!) I was hearing things that not only comforted me, but challenged me also.  I like a good challenge, not so sure I was banking on the ‘taking earth’ challenge, but I so wanted to ‘touch heaven’!!!

(and not be afraid)

Anyway, countless blessings have happened and continue to happen to me and for me, but what has got me truly excited is the past 4 – 5 weeks, man what an experience!  I have always prayed, for ‘eyes that see, ears that hear, a heart that is open and a will that is willing…well let me tell you, in my book that’s an awesome prayer, because awesome things have happened more evidently (to the human eye, ear and heart).  In the recent weeks…when two or three are gathered, small crowd, right?  Well not for God or His heavenly hosts.  Have you been part of a heavenly choir giving praise to God?  I have.  With truthful, honest, from the heart praise in my church, I heard angels giving praise with me!  With my family, in my church, yeah I took a second listen and yeah I heard them! I was worshipping with the multitudes, the heavenly hosts above, with a handful of brothers and sisters.

For those who think church is dead, I challenge you, pray my prayer and seek God, He will show you different.  I have felt the Holy presence of my Heavenly Father, the conviction of the Holy Spirit and the healing power of my Saviour, Jesus Christ, most prominently in the last few weeks than ever before!  Yeah, broken hearts, broken bones and disease can be healed, but so can confidence, self-esteem, trust and joy can be restored.

I have been brought to the place where I am happy to get on my knees and not care what another has thought. I have been touched by God and am not afraid to say it. He has allowed me to ‘touch heaven’ and is equipping me to assist with ‘taking earth’.

That, my friends is how He is massively changing me.  Without Him, I am nothing and many do not understand that, but thankfully I have a living relationship with the Creator of heaven and earth, “in him all things are possible”, so those that today do not understand my relationship with Him, in His time according to His will, will know the truth and understand it.


Sally, 15/06/2016

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